How I Overthink the smallest decisions. Do you too?
Does your brain sometimes go into a confused state where it struggles to make even small decisions?
So I was about to sleep by the end of this episode I was watching and I saw the main character smoking a cigarette while making some kind of plan.
That reminded me of the two cigarettes that I had in my drawer. Though I don’t ever crave a cigarette, I thought of having one.
And here comes the overthinking express…. Make some way!! Stand behind the yellow line please!
If you smoke this, then there’ll be only one left! (cigs here are way too expensive and I almost never buy a pack)
It’s almost 2 am, you have to sleep too! You smoke this, and there will be even less time to sleep this night
You only like a cigarette after you drink, and you do have one can of gin left, wanna drink some and then smoke?
Do you want to sleep today or not?? Why tf do you even want a cigarette!?
Think quickly!! You’re wasting your time!! Wtf!! Just smoke it...
What will you do while smoking? Watch something? But you don’t feel like watching anything...
Should I go outside and smoke or should I smoke by the window? Outside it'll be too cold!
Let’s just not smoke and sleep.. wtf
How fucked up is your overthinking! Wanna write about it?
And here I am writing this article.. and I decided that I’ll not smoke, because anyway I’m trying to reduce smoking, and I’ll just play some piano and go to sleep.
But…. as I was getting up to play my piano, I saw some ash on the table beside the window and decided, fuck it… I’m smoking. And I did…
Sarthak Mirchandani
